There have been lots of tears here tonight, but this time tears of relief. My unit assessor for Systemic Anatomy emailed me this afternoon and told me that she had reviewed a Special Consideration application that I submitted prior to sitting my exams to inform the school that I suffer from anxiety and that my exams may be affected as a result. On the basis of this she is offering me a resit of both my practical and my theory exam and on the grounds that I obtain 50% for both of the exams individually I will pass the unit. The resit exams will be in August, so this session I will practically be studying 5 units, plus working (which could turn into two jobs, if my interview last Wednesday was successful).
I’m getting really anxious about how I’m going to cope with the workload, considering how much I struggled last semester, but I’m determined not to fuck it up again. I know it’s going to be hard and I’m going to need a hell of a lot of help, but hopefully I can get through it.
Semester 2 starts tomorrow, and despite what I’ve just said, I’ve done no preparation. I haven’t even purchased my text books yet (although that has more to do with lack of funds than lack of motivation!). So with the fact that I’m unprepared, and that it’s almost like starting uni all over again, what with beginning four entirely new subjects, new classes and new teachers I’m just a little bit scared! But it will be okay. It will. It will. It will! (It has to be, Right? I can’t seriously managed to screw it up twice, can I? I know now how much effort I need to put in. I need to make myself do it. 14 weeks and the year is over. Who cares if I don’t sleep for 14 weeks, this semester I refuse to have a fail grade on my transcript.)
But I must admit, I’m feeling a little overwhelmed already!!
xx
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